“I don’t have enough time.”
“I need to do this other thing that’s more important.”
“What if I hurt myself?”
“I can always start tomorrow/next week/next month.”
“My pregnancy clothes from 7 months ago are cute and still comfortable!! Why should I bother getting new ones? Plus they still fit! No one will know they are maternity.”
“If I finish this box of cookies tonight, then I won’t have anything to binge on tomorrow and I can start my diet tomorrow!!”
“Healthy food is expensive.”
“I still look hot cause my husband says so, right? I don’t need to worry.”(I think they lie to make us feel better, but in the end it is sabotaging us!)
Excuses. We’ve all made them. Heck, I’ve practically lived by them in recent times. Every excuse listed above has come out of my mouth or crossed my mind. But the truth is, they are evil! They keep us from the things that we want most out of life: happiness, fitness, longevity, confidence in the bedroom, being able to play with our kids and set a good example for them. So the question I ask myself is, WHY??? If I took a poll, I bet NOBODY would say that they want to be overweight/obese, have health problems, and not be able to walk up flights of stairs. And I would also bet that NOBODY would want to be too embarrassed to show their spouse their hind end! So, what is going on with this self-sabotage?
I thought about it and I think different people all have different reasons to make excuses. But for me, I think it is fear. I think I am afraid of failure!! Things always came relatively easy to me in life. I was good at school, sports, music, making friends. I never had to try too terribly hard at something. Except for being overweight. I was always overweight, my entire life, by about 10-15 lb. Not a lot really, however it was always there. I couldn’t shake it. Except for 2 years in my early 20s I was really skinny (see my profile picture) for awhile. Now, it’s more like 25-30 lbs, after having a baby and spending way too much time on my butt. So, for some reason, in the past it has always been easier to just accept the extra weight than to attempt to lose it for good and then fail. I am afraid of failure.
Well, no more!! I’ve decided to raise two middle fingers to my fear of failure and dive in head first. I am going to do this! Maybe I will fail the first time! So what! I will keep trying! But you never know, I might not fail at all! I’ve always been a goal-oriented person, so I needed a “goal” to be able to work towards while I do this. Otherwise I lose my focus. So, the current goal is to run a 5K race without stopping or walking.
Today I started the week 1 training of the Couch to 5K program. Google it and click on the first website! It’s amazing! So I did the workout this evening and it was the perfect amount of intensity for my lack of fitness level. I didn’t feel like I was going to die and yet I was sweating and breathing hard the whole time. I am going to stick with this and in 9 weeks I will be running a 5K without stopping, I am determined.
As for food, I think I did okay today. I ended up as a -1000 and it says I need to be at most a -750, but really i felt like I ate a ton. I’ll post my food log with this, but I feel like I am eating enough, i dunno! The only beverage I drank all day was water.
Anyway, no more excuses. I’m going to lose this weight, I’m going to run this 5K, and I’m going to feel like I did 5 years ago! Who’s with me?